This shadow in me.

I think I have narrowed it down a bit, this discord.
It is a yearning. A desire unmet. Longing.
For what,
I do not know.
My. . .
I don't want to say mind.
Soul
feels foggy.
I feel blind.
I cannot see myself.
What I really am.
Full of irrational emotion.
There is no clarity here.
(Like that night we roasted smores, the foggy sky.)
I am hiding something from myself.
I am running from it.
But it pursues me
and haunts my dreams,
this shadow in me.
Inescapable
consuming
foreign