Saturday, April 30, 2005

The perspective of a paper clip.

I wish my life were a book so that I could flip to the end and read the last page. If I just knew that everything turned out all right, I could handle the bad parts better. Like, when I read a romance novel and the main characters are in life-threatening situations or something, I don't fret because I know that they can't die; its a romance novel for goodness sake. And I don't mean that I want my life to be a romance novel either, unless it was the love story between me and God. What would the last page say? Do I get my happily ever after?

Thursday, April 28, 2005

So now I'm in a good mood.

I don't really have anything interesting to say, I just want to communicate without actually talking.

I feel like jelly that has been spread over too much toast.
Jelly is yummy.

It is amazing how God can put your "problems" into perspective. On the grand scale of things, eternity and all (although what the "all" would be in this example, I do not know), what does it matter anyway? I can get so distracted by the things of this world, so easily. These things will pass in the blink of an eye and I will have nothing to show for my tears over them.

Have you ever heard just the right song at just the right moment? This happened to me today. It played on Klove and it was a song by Overflow called Cry on my shoulder. The words just really comforted me. Specifically "You have had some hard times/ Had thorns placed in your side/ I know about what you've been going through/ Tears of pain are falling down/ It hurts so bad you're crying out/ You're problems won't last forever/ Let me put you back together"

I just really love Christian music. It lifts me up, makes me happy, reassures me, gives me joy, makes me smile, teaches me. . .

Katelyn and I were talking about heaven today. What we thought it would be like, wondered what happens when you die. Do you go straight there, do you sleep until Jesus comes back? Does the Bible say this somewhere? At any rate, it is fun to talk about and its wonderful to be filled with anticipation of it. Ha ha, anticipating death. Yes, yes I do, when my work here is done. I feel He still has work yet to do in me. His will be done.

Well, time for bed now. I have to brush my teeth and I've come to dread this because I bought vanilla mint tooth paste and it is quite unpleasant, but I just cant throw away a whole tube of toothpaste. Given the same choice, would I try the new flavor of toothpaste? Definitely yes. Its just toothpaste for goodness sake, I have to live a little.

Goodnight Sweetie,
Sarah jo

Whispers of a daydream.

You are so real
And I mean honest.
Even the way you breathe
is true.
And you make me feel that
you could swallow up
all the insecurities
and pain in me
and love me still
like I could let you know me
like God knows me
and find only greater love in your eyes
for it
And I want to know you
analyze each time you exhale
because it is beautiful
because you are so beautiful
and that doesn't even include your body
that temporary thing
no no no
I love everything about you.
Everything about you.
Everything about you.

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

"And it was good brother! It was God D*** good!" - Leonard Bernstein

Katelyn ( I finally learned how to spell it right) and I decided that the lumberjack pictured below shall henceforth be named Robert Edward Kennakey. What do you think of Sarah Jo Kennakey?

Wow, I'm so tired. It will probobly be better after next week is over. I await the end of finals.

So, I got my financial aid package in the mail today. They are offering me one loan. Thats the "package." And there is a 2 thousand dollar gap between that loan and tuition. Im stressed. They wont even let me borrow enough money to cover tuition. So, I'll have to come up with the 2 thousand dollars and then take out a loan for 3,500. I really didnt want to have to take out a bunch of student loans. No fun.

I am so tired of worrying about money and my credit and everything. GAH!

Oh, let me tell you. I called Time Warner Cable to sign up for road runner and they told me I had an existing bill from 2000. I wasn't even 18 yet. How could this happen? Well, apparently my parents got a cable bill in my name and then did not pay it off. So, not only do I have a bill for a service I never had, but my credit is sabatoged from having a five year old bill. My parents response: "I don't remember doing that. . ."
Words cannot acurately describe the black emotion running through my veins right now. I just want to scream: How dare you?!?! How unfair! Don't you have a concience? Do you have no understanding of what is right and what is wrong?

I'm just tired of being hurt the most by the people I love and trust the most.

Sarah jo

Saturday, April 23, 2005

May I present. . .

Mr. Perfect. Posted by Hello

Does anyone else find sneezing pleasurable?

It took me several times to spell "else" right. I'm that good.

I went to the movies with my parents today. That was fun. Followed by a Chantico from Star Bucks. Those things are like the liquer of hot chocolate, I'm telling you. I had to pour it into a glass of milk.

I found my future husband today! He was on the front of a salami package in the vending machine. I'll post a picture of him.

And. . . I think I'll go read now.

La la la,
Sarah Jo

Thursday, April 21, 2005

Just when I thought I didn't have any good nicknames. . .

Sarah Jo Lewis's Aliases

Your movie star name: Popcorn Jimmy

Your fashion designer name is Sarah Vienna

Your socialite name is Peller Heaven

Your fly girl / guy name is S Lew

Your detective name is Human Middletown

Your barfly name is Granola Wine Cooler

Your soap opera name is Jo Central

Your rock star name is Hershey Light

Your star wars name is Sarcud Lewbob

Your punk rock band name is The Curious Tweezers

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

2002 Oldsmobile Alero

I got my new-er car today. Fun stuff. It's so red. And I start my new job in the morning, fun stuff also. So now, I go to bed.

Sarah Jo

Monday, April 18, 2005

Our bench just dissapitated! Someone must have obscondered with it. I should have inseged my name on it.

My mother has a tendency to make up words. Let me share a few with you:

inseg - inscribe, engrave, to carve ones name upon. Example: I should have inseged my name on it.

obsconder - to make off with, steal Example: Who obscondered all my cookies?

dissapitate - dissapear/evaporate. Example: All the snow just dissapitated.

There are also word switches such as her using lucid when she means livid. This happens with several similiar sounding words.

And that concludes todays lesson. Your homework is to use these three words at least once in the next week.

Have a nice day and stuff,
Sarah Jo

Friday, April 15, 2005

To quote myself: I want to frolic with dozens of crazy clowns!

So, I'm going to go stay all night with my cousins Elisabeth and Kaitlynn. Elisabeth and Emilie have softball practice tonight and I shall watch them. Tomorrwo I'll go to Jae Jae Mae Mae classes with all the girls. Fun times. Oh yes, and Im skipping class! Mwah ha ha ha. Did that look like an evil laugh?

Hmm, Well, I must go!

Sarah Jo

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

It all started on a sunny october day in 2000 . . .

I recieved an email today that said, "Jesus H. Christ has requested to add you as a friend, but before we can do that, you must confirm that you are in fact friends with Jesus."

I am, in fact, friends with Jesus.

Thanks so much.
Sarah Jo

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Oh yeah, I forgot about that weather project. . .

Just wanted to share some amusing quotes I heard today

"Trying to out-wierd one another."

"Hello? I can't find my head!"

"You used me own sock against me?"

"I'm like a sex camel!"

And. . . I think I'll buy a newer car. We'll just have to wait and see if I can fill in more details once said car is mine.

Sarah Jo

Sunday, April 10, 2005

Club = Rap Music + Oversexed Young Teenagers

SO. . . I had a great time tonight. I am apparently very "white" with no rhythm or dancing abilities what so ever, but that did not stop me from having fun or entertaining spectators. Man 'o man am I tired, lets do it again.

And did you have any idea how long it takes a girl to get ready to go out? I didn't. I swear it took at least three hours. Maybe the time multiplies when it is multiple girls getting ready in the same house, but dang. (And yes, "dang" was the most appropriate word for the moment.) I promise it only takes me half an hour at most.

I came home just in time for one of my dads drunken religious speeches. I escaped quickly but not without being offended first. I heard exactly one racial comment and one sexist comment before I made a point to leave.

Well, its off to bed for me as I have to work in the morning.

I hope your weekend was a fun as mine,
Sarah Jo

Friday, April 08, 2005


I got the job!

Thursday, April 07, 2005

Are you the one I'm waiting for?

This morning started an hour later than it should have, mainly because my alarm clock decided to die. But, it could have been written in the cosmos that I should awaken at 8:45 a.m. on Thursday, April 7th, 2005. Whatever the reason, no ill came of it and I now have a new alarm clock. This one has a green display, as opposed to the red display of my previous clock. This one seems happier, like it is glad to be servicing me. Apparently, the other clock had no such feelings since it let me sleep in on a test day.

After class today, Kaitlin invited me to spend the day with her. We went to the mall and decided to get our hair chopped off. I am now sporting a do that ends at my ears. AH! The great thing about hair is, it grows back out every time. I don't hate it, but it will take some time getting used to. The funny thing is that everyday my hair will be different than it was the day before, even the hour before. . . And then we walked around wasting time and having fun and eating lunch and things.
While at the hair-cutting place (er, Mastercuts?) I had a brief terrifying moment when I thought it was Friday and supposed to be at work. Then, I remembered that it was just a particularly entertaining Thursday.
Then came class. Sociocultural Studies in Education and all the excitement that came with it.
I went to Wal-Mart! And of course I purchased more than I planned. . .
On the drive home, the sky was marvalous. How can you explain the sky? Well, half the sky was clear and bluish and the other half had dark grey clouds. I was under the dark portion and it was raining, but the sun was shining so brightly and reflection off of the road. It was great. I felt like any minute I would drive out from under the clouds and be bathed in the light of the sun.
Although it is raining now, the sun is so close I can nearly touch it.
I could go on forever and never capture that beauty.

My happy clock says its time to do something productive.

Quick! Think of something happy!

Sarah Jo

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

"I'm not your average girl!" - Barlow Girl

I fixed the toilet all by myself today! Oh, by the way, the toilet was broken AGAIN. The little chain thing has been broken for sometime and Chris jury-rigged it several different times. I finally decided to get the correct hardware? at Lowes and then I fixed it all by myself, without a man. I was much proud of myself.

Ashley and Tommy's blogs both have the same template and it leaves me confused some of the time.

I picked out a shirt to buy to wear to the club. It was fun. Madison accesorized me since I am accessory deficient or something.

Some person IMed me today and kept calling me "hun", "babe" and "sexy". I am no ones hun or babe and I am not, in fact, sexy. How annoying. It felt so. . . I don't know. I didn't like it. I would rather hear Chris call me a "bitch", at least he knows enough about me to make any kind of assessment, and he loves me weather or not he likes me most of the time. Some strange person has no right to use terms like that, its so demeaning. It leads me to ask, What goal does he have in mind for this conversation? And then I know. . .

Well, I've been alone for too long, I need human interaction.

Love ya "hun"
Ha ha.
You know if I do or not.

Sarah Jo

Monday, April 04, 2005

"Go play tennis with your mom."

I had a happy day. The sun shone brightly and the sky was clear. I went on a walk with my mother and I read a book and I went to work, in that order. Yes, there are many things I left out.

Anyway, I just heard a message from Matt Theissen on the fan club site and it made me laugh out loud and filled me with happy-good feelings and I thought I would try to send some of said feelings to you through this medium. Now, close your eyes, wait, don't close your eyes until you finish reading this, but then close your eyes and imagine a little wave of happy-good feelings going from me to you, because I like you that much.

Well, I have school in the morning and I must sleep before then.

Sarah Jo

You can close them now.

Sunday, April 03, 2005

"Excuse me!" (I'm even polite to shoplifters)

The day started with church. I went to the Oasis with Kaitlin. It was a nice service, but I do not think I'll go back. It was not the church for me. I won't go listing all the things I liked and didn't like.

Kaitlin invited me to go to a club next weekend with her and Laura. Did I already say that? I don't know. Anyway, I am excited; I've never been to a club before. I think it's called Paradox.

At my grandparents house today, my grandpa told me the story of when he got saved. It was really touching. I'll have to share it with you some time, because it is pretty awesome. I would put it here, but that would take forever to type. . . I love hearing my grandpa talk about God. He always starts crying. He is so passionate.

At work today, we had a shoplifter. I was walking around with the lady helping her find this and that. After I helped her I started straightening things. After a few moments she tells me she left a bag on the counter and wanted me to get it for her. She walked to the back with me and I get her the bag and notice that the armload of clothes she had is gone, so I look for it in the store. I find it on the ground beneath a rounder. I pick it up to put it away, thinking at this point that she just must be rude and messy. She tells me that she would like me to hold the items for her for a day. I go to take the merchandise to the back of the store and when I come back up front, she is running out the front door with her bag full of clothes. I ran outside and yelled at her, but she just shouted "Come on!" at a parked car and ran across the parking lot. I got the license plate number and called the police. I was so nervous and upset that I was shaking. I hope she gets caught. I feel badly for leaving her when I was suspicious about her in the first place. I should have known better. Well, I cannot change the past and I cannot take responsibility for the actions of others. I will know next time to be more attentive and less trusting. I don't want to not trust people.

Wow, that was a LONG paragraph.
And those were the happenings of the day. I want to have the passion for the Lord that my grandfather has. I want it to consume me.

We sang a worship song in church today that I really love. I don't know what its called but it goes "It's the beauty of simplicity that brings me down to my knees. I will praise you for eternity. Lord I love You, because You, You first loved me. And all Gods people say: We, we love You, we love You Lord, we love You. . . "

I wish happiness and blessings upon you,
"May the Lord bless you and keep you. . ."

Sarah Jo

Oh dear, its getting late.

I got so sick today. After school, I spent the whole day in my bed. Its so frustrating not having any control over my own body. I just wanted to make it stop and I could not.

I am determined to be better tomorrow. I'm going to the Oasis with Kaitlin. I will be better, darn it.

Well, I best be off. I should really go to sleep, but I slept all day. I feel much better right now, but I think thats because I havent eaten anything since noon.

I hope you are faring well.

Sarah Jo

Friday, April 01, 2005

"I will give you all my worship. . ."

I wrote a poem about my car last night. It was beautiful, in a creepy sort of way.

Can you believe I forgot to tell you that P.C. Cast came out with a new book? (This is the part where you are wondering who in the world P.C. Cast is and why I am bothering to tell you, right?) Anyway, it is called Goddess of Light and I loved it. I especially loved the character Eddie, bless his heart. I decided he will be my favorite, er, romance novel guy? Lochlan used to hold that position but, there might actually be an Eddie out there somewhere, while I highly doubt the existence of winged/vampire men such as the formorian Lochlan. Next will be Goddess of the Rose and then Brigihds Quest. Goddess of the Rose will be a twist on beauty and the beast!

Great day, today was. I got Jeremy Camp and Todd Agnew cds from the library. I really like Jeremy Camp. I would love to see him in concert. I almost did, once upon a time. . .

I went out to lunch with my mother, brother, and his girlfriend. That was nice, I guess. Christopher asked me if I wanted to go out to lunch with the three of them, then asked if I would pay for Moms lunch. I found that amusing.

I'm going to go to church on Sunday. I don't have any idea which one though. . . I guess I'll just try to find out when one starts. I want to find one that is right for me. I'm just a little nervous about going to a church by myself without knowing anyone there. I don't like trying new things by myself, but I definitely need to do this and I won't let a little apprehension stop me.

I miss S.O.S. I liked how small it was there. I liked the praise and worship, the way we all moved up to the front of the little church. I liked Chads sermons. I didn't like hanging out in the basement eating pizza and playing games. I didn't like people falling on the floor crying and speaking in tongues.

I don't want to go to an extremely radical church, but I definitely don't want one so conservative that it is ruled by tradition. If I had to chose, I would rather have the former than the latter. I want my relationship with God to be passionate and ever-growing.

I wish I could share this with my family. They are Christians by name only. My dad only talks about God when he is drunk. My mother always says she knows she should change, and she will someday. It grieves me.
Well, whining about it will not change a thing, and it will only make me sad.

I have homework to do.

Sarah Jo