First of all, Stranger, ww, when you have your poetry and stories in a site, I would love to read them. Tell me your address and we can share each other. My email address is firstname.lastname@example.org if you don't want to post it on this site. If you don't care to share, the just ignore me I guess. Ill be curious for a while and then Ill forget about you.
Second, so I went to stake and shake with Ashley tonight and that was fun. It wasn't something I would normally do so it was nice. We talked, and I feel better. Its like letting some of the pressure out. I talk a lot but I don't get to say important things. I need to talk to someone more often, I'm running out of room in my head to store all these um random conversations.
Third, so this made me realize that I don't appreciate my friends enough. So, I think I will make a tribute here for the ones who know me best. You know what? No. Um, I think that would cause all kinds of feelings by people that I would not put on the page, so then I would have to list everyone and that would just be pointless. I cant do a tribute to everyone. So, this will be for Ashley, because she caused it.
Ashley, I don't appreciate you enough. I remember the first time I talked with you on the phone, it was like, wow. I really felt like we connected and I was comfortable with you from the beginning. What I like about you is this: you always challenge me. Since seventh grade you have reached into my little shell and try to pry it open a little more each time. Thank you. I think I might have been different without you. You don't sit there and let me complain or wonder, you just make me do something about it. I tell you I need to leave the house,and you offer stake and shake. I was going to say no. I was going to sit here and think about how much I want to be gone instead of going, but it was you. I don't apologize for being snappy with you, that's your own doing. Timid Sarah is nonexistent with you. I am sometimes uncomfortable that I am instantly comfortable with you. Um, I had a half hour distraction and now I lost my thought. Anyway, my point was something like, I like you.
Um, I have lots of thoughts now but I don't think I can share them all today. Maybe later. I even typed one of them out here but then I deleted it. I'm not so honest with you. I'm sorry.