Lately I feel like I am drowning in the sadness, and it is inescapable. I cannot handle all these things at once, I want them one at a time. Im not happy. I said, I am not happy. Im screaming this and they don't listen to me, they pacify me and promise it will all get better. Your words do not sooth me if they are not followed by action. I am not happy. I am frustrated and angry and hurt, everday. Every Single Day. And it all started when HE got here, and I dont like it, and I dont like him.