Wednesday, October 19, 2005

I am understood?

I really need to vent just now. Or go somewhere, but I'm incredibly broke so the going somewhere wouldn't turn out so great. And the venting won't help either, because all the stuff I want to vent about would still be here, so what good would that be?

My lightbulb blew. And it was one of those "long-lasting" lightbulbs that's shaped all funny like a swirly tube. And I had it since July. Now, I believe it was supposed to last five years. I'm very disappointed.

In music class we are learning how to add simple harmony to simple songs, like twinkle twinkle or something. My fingers don't like the piano. Or the piano doesn't like my fingers. I cant make them reach where they need to go or stay where they should be or push down when they should and not push down when they shouldn't. Especially my pinky finger. And I have a terrible time trying to read music. I know how scales work and I know how songs should sound, but trying to look at the scale and know that that note is a C, I just can't do it. I always have to count up to it, you know, "F. . A. . .C"

I can't wait to find out what I got on my midterm.

I really like the lyrics for the new song so I'll share them because they aren't on a website anywhere yet:

The Truth by Relient K

And I've collected all these thoughts
and I'm dying just to lose them
and if your words are true or not
Ill die trying to prove them

but Ill just have to accept
that my mind is so inept
when the only thing that's left
for me to do is to trust you

convince me
because I really need your help
convince me
because I cant see this for myself

Ill put the emphasis on the evidence
begging for the proof
sometimes the hardest thing to believe
is the truth

this is so unnerving
I know you've never lied to me before
but the things you're telling me
I cant yet believe yet cant ignore

but Ill just have to accept
that my mind is so inept
and the only thing that's left
for me to do is to trust you

Ill put the emphasis on the evidence
begging for the proof
sometimes the hardest thing to believe
is the truth

you said to place our lives into your hands
confide in what you'll do
sometimes the hardest thing to believe
is the truth

its a world full of cynics
who say to stay alive in it
you gotta stick with what you know
but the soul is always aching
for the heart to start taking
a chance by letting go
So let go
let go
sometimes the hardest thing to believe
is the truth

you said to place our lives into your hands
confide in what you'll do
sometimes when you're trying to sleep
and all your doubts and your faith don't agree
it cus
sometimes the hardest thing to believe is the truth

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