Wednesday, February 23, 2005

You look an awful lot like the cube I need, but your just a square, baby.

Thinking back over almost forgotten conversations and reading things I wrote while thinking of you, I wonder, Can this ever be? Is this even worth the energy? I know that for one moment I think all I want is to spend another moment with you, but then in the next moment, I know that you are not the one for me. I find that I am intrigued by the idea of love and not necessarily you. Falling for the fist person to pay attention to me is not what I need to be doing. On the other hand, I am in no position to be picky. But I suppose that just because I want say, a new shirt, and someone says that this shirt is the only one I can have, I do not have to take the shirt, I can be happy without any new shirt at all. This analogy is not working so well.

I'm just trying to tell myself to let go of a thing I never had and to stop reaching for what will never be. This is just a distraction.

1 comment:

your unmocking spoof said...

Philia(friendship love) is like chocolate. the more 'serious' relationships are fluff in the chocolate eggs...nice to have...but not necessary. Anything extra is just nuts.