Fleeting Enchantment

I wasn't being honest,
I was just trying to
hurt you
without being so
forthright
about it.
Because

you hurt me
or maybe I'm just jealous
when I shouldn't be
when I

have absolutely
no reason to be.
No, you did nothing.
I hurt myself.

Constructing
ah, meaning
or false ideas
in my head.

I am not patient enough
to wait for
what I think I want.

Most days I want to
give the whole thing up
because

this doesn't fit in my
five-year plan.

Let me be
candid here
and say
For a moment
all I wanted was
you.