I don't listen to myself very well. As soon as I tell myself NOT to feel this way, I do. Stupid emotions not bending to the logic. I was totally in control for about 37.25 seconds. Pooh.

Tonight was dinner at P.F. Changs with the gang from work. It was incredibly awesome, as it usually is. So why am I sad just now? Because I'm alone now and I wasn't ready to be. Because I want more. More. More. More.

I wonder if they know. I wonder if they can tell. I want them to, but I don't want to have to say it.

Five seconds can be a very long time.

Didn't I say I was going to ask for things I want?
But I'm afraid.

I really don't like being alone. Pretty much ever. But I am.