Sunday, January 22, 2006

Okay, breathe, and do your homework.

How do I say this? Every class I take for my major leaves me feeling more and more unsure of myself. This is fear closing in on me. I can look at and call it irrational, unhelpful, useless, but it still grips me tighter every day. "What if" looms in front of me. What if I can't teach? What if I can't handle a class full of children? What if I don't like it? What if I waste four years of my life preparing for a career that will not happen? Fear. Irrational, stupid, fear. And it is taking over.

Sarah Jo


Ashes said...

My thoughts exactly... and I believe this is why I have been procrastinating with my Cohort duties.

I wish I could stay this age the rest of my life! I'm content with my life as it is.

I like going to school and learning new and exciting things, but I don't like having to worry about taking the right classes and getting into the cohort and having deadlines.

But what can we do about it? If we stay on our current path then these obstacles have to be conqured, and I beleive as more days go by you will quit doubting yourself and your abilities.

your unmocking spoof said...

here's the plan...

we go to montana and become it'll be great. see ya there.

Sarah Jo said...

Shall we go by plane, train, or automobile?